It's been a while.
Truthfully, I am procrastinating on an analysis paper by writing this journal instead of honestly and willingly putting it to words, but I figured it might help me calm down and hype myself up by typing some things out, even if nobody will read them.
Long story short, it's been almost a year since the last time I updated my journal, and while that does not seem like a long time, it is particularly odd to me because once upon a time, I used to browse DeviantArt religiously. Not so much anymore, and that's quite obvious, seeing as I've had to dust off my deviations and vacuum up the cobwebs that have accumulated in my inbox.
I'm somewhat overwhelmed by the amount of work that I have had to do in the past year, and while it has been a great learning experience, I am ready to get back to taking drawing seriously. I want to learn. I don't want to stagnate. I've seen all of my friends from years past rocket up past the atmosphere and into the vastness of space whilst I'm still looking up longingly at the sky with my feet dug into the mud. So many of them have improved and improved much, and although I know I should not compare myself to them, I still can't whittle away the feeling of isolation, of being left behind.
I hope to share my progress here as I start to venture into putting effort towards my art. Things will be difficult, but––and I'm making this statement right now––I refuse to become lazy. I know I am better at that. I've gotten better at it this year by not putting assignments off until the last minute.
Well, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Aside from that, I've made a few new friends and I've made a really good friend in my roommate. I'm glad that we got the chance to be together. I don't know what I would do without her.
Thanks for listening to an old lady ramble.
I hope your lives are going well and that your joys are as numerous as the stars in the sky.
Until the days are hot and the schools are empty,